Ok, where to start.....?

Again I apologize for getting so far behind on my posting. Icould offer more exuses, but they are just that, so instead I'll just promise to try even harder.

I did get my weekly message up on the site on time which is a very large miricle for me right now considering that I'm trying to keep up with so much that I didn't even decide on a topic until last night and then my voice program went down so I had to type it out by hand. That may not seem bad to you but I type with 1 finger and can't spell that well. But, it's up and I pray you read it because it's a topic that I think we all need help with sometimes. Next week and the week after I will be looking at the same parable but from different viewpoints.

My heart and prayers go out to Mollie, Craig and Austin. For details click on Mollie's blog in the link section to the right. Please remember my friends that God is with you and I am only a phone call away.

You know as a minister I am not allowed to ebdorse polititians or address to strongly political issues, but it does seem to me that we are seeing more and more cases like Mollie's where badly needed medical services are being cut to fit the budget. If this isd an indication, and it does seem to be, of what we are heading towards with the government taking over ... well all I can really endorse is that you call your congress reps and let them know that if they want your vote you expect better from them. We don't need little children like Austin being deprived becaue of mony.

I talked with my own pastor this week and we decided to have our first official youth meeting on Thursday September, 10. I'm not sure how many kids we will have but I am hoping to have a group for 10 - 15 year olds and another for ages 16 - 19. I plan to use our current Thursday night community parties to advertise as well as taking flyers to the locale schools next month.

Speaking of our parties, that's one reason I have been lax in posting. We had the first one this last week and it wore me out. But I have to judge it a complete success. I'm not sure how it happened because I would have bet against it but everything fell into place just in time. The food donations all came through and our volunteer cook is one of the happiest men you will ever meet. All of the paper goods had been left on a counter but were gone when we opened the church. One of the ladies in our congregation took off and in no time brought us everything we needed to get by God bless her. Our praise band did not make it like we planned but one of our members grabbed a speaker on a stand and a cd player and we soon had music for the whole neighborhood. Then the fire department rolled up right on time and people started showing up from every direction. Once they opened their spray nozzle it looked like it was raining and with as hot as it's been it wasn't just the kids playing in it. Even our pastor got soaked. They were nice and put me to work at registration so that I could be in out of the heat but it was still a lot of work. I had to get people to sign in and then give them thier tickets but there were times it was really good that we kept the other side of the ticket because quite often I lost track of all the poeople going through.

For those of you who can't go to your church for bible studies I am working on setting it up for our pastor to do an online interactive bible study from the web site I am building for our church. I will post the information when I get it going but please email me and let you know if you are interested.

I went for my physical this last week. No surprise he wants me to lose weight. So do I but it's easier to say than to do. But I am starting to go to the Y every day starting tomorrow with my kids and do as much as I can. I also have to quit smoking at the same time, joy, joy. But he never gave me trouble about it before so I know he's serious. The main reason is that I now have COPD. But if I quit smoking and lose the weight I just might live long enough to go blind from the glocoma and occullar distrophy. Of course I have to have more tests and go on oxygen at night and maybe during the day. It seems that my sleepp disorders keep me from storing up enough to use during the day.

Enfuriating Emmy came home safe and sound from her mission trip. She spent her time this year helping to rebuild a home that was torn up by th hurricane and came back baked but full of love for God for letting her do it. She as got to swim in the Gulf (her first time in the ocean) and went on a tour t N.A.S.A..

Beautiful Becky and Jolly Joe Cool are both progressing on their driving lessons. I pray that one of them gets through it soon so that they can get around without me before it is too late. The only thing that has kept me from checking into the hospital lately is knowing that I am the only driver in the house. I have to admit that it's pretty hard to keep going right now though. I o otst raumatic stress yndrome an I ne tr ttyf y dn' but ne f thethings t can d is to causeyuto have flashbcks Trust m Im not tang about eries here. When oavea asback its llikets hapeg rght tere an ow nd you ca' tel that it's not reall. Well I am blessed with these flashbacks and the more depressed I get the worse and more often they are. Now lets just say that the only time that I would ever willingly check myself into a hospital is if I were feeling seriously suicidal. So that tells you how bad the depression is right now. But all I can do right now is to keep praying to God kee me safe. I can't really tlk to friends or family because I don't want to be abron t tem I really can't believe 'm even writing this and should delete it. But I do have faith that God will keep me safe. I know he will keep you safe as well. Thank you for letting me talk.