All for God... I'm just a speck

Ok, I'm not sure what prompted that title, but it's certainly true. I'm really not even sure what I'm going to write about tonight. I just know that I need to keep inpractice posting or I'm liable to keep putting it off and let it go forever. I'll have to let you decide if what I say has any meaning for you, but as well as site updates I really want it to be a place where I can bare my soul to you.

Updates: We haven't gotten as much done as I would have liked, but we are slowly making progress. I did write the tenth in the Psalms series and I'm working on 11 and hope to have it up tomorrow. Then if I can get lucky I'll be able to write the twelth and link it up for you either Sunday when it's due or Monday at the latest and be caught up. Joseph coded the pages for days 26 through 30 of Bible reading plan #1 and I added chapters 6 - 10 of Numbers in plan two. I also got another 10 days up in the history section so that you can read something that happened with Christianity each day through May 10th now. I know that this doesn't sound like that much, but if you are familiar with writing the codes for building web sites you'll know how much it really is. And if you want anything close to a life you'll understand why I can't get things up faster.

Updates in my so called life: I know that the big news health wise right now is this new flue and I plan to get to that but dirst I want to thank some very special heroes and thank God for them. Now I shudder to admit this but one of my personal vices is listening to talk radio. I co nsider myself to be pretty coservative and this seems to be the only way I can keep up with things since most papers seem to use a very liberal slant. I was listening yesterday when the host interupted his own show to ask for volunteers. It seems that there was a baby girl not quite 2 years old who desperately needed a quadrule organ transplant to live. I don't need to tell you what the odds are of all 4 organs being available at the same time in the same place and being a match for this poor child. But God being who and what He is provided a miricle and all of a sudden they had them. Only problem is that the organs were in Florida and the child I believe they said in Alabama and not much time to bring the two together. However a group called Angel Flights contacted the host whom I believe is a member and he asked for help on his show. Needles to say two wonderful people answered the call and at their own expense flew the baby and her parents in their own private plane to Florida in time for the surgery. To me these two represent what angels are supposed to be. Thank you both, the host Mr. N.B., Angel Flight and most of all Jesus Christ.

As far as this new flue I keep getting mixed messages. The rate at which it is spreading and the deaths attributed to it seem pretty upsetting to me, but according to the C.D.C. it is actually less than a normal bought of flue we get each winter. My thoughts are to try to avoid congested areas, be extra carefull to cover when sneezing or coughing, try not to have contact such as shaking hands any more than you need and wash your hands at every oportunity. And above all else don't forgrt to vaccinate yourself regularly with prayer.

I want to congratulate our own Becky who for many reasons decided to leave her home church of two years and join a new one last Sunday. Since then she has been given the job of worship leader and will also be preaching there for the first time on May 17th, so if you are in Wichita Ks. I invite you to join us at Brookside United Methodist at 10:30am to hear her.

I also want to congratulate Joseph who is up for the position of shift manger in his job. We'll be praying for you Joseph.

To Miss Mollie I send all of my prayers for God's healing touch for both you and Craig. If you want to see what exactly is going on with these wonderful people and why they need our prayers please read Mollie's blog for G.L.O.V.E. You'll find the link on the right.

I can't say I've been getting a whole lot done in my personal life. Becky is taking extra classes at college, Joseph is going back to work full time and Emmy being a sophemore and involved with her church always has something to due. We are working on getting Becky's liceince back now that we got her new glasses and Joseph got his learners permit but for now I am the only one driving except for teaching him which still takes a lot of time.

I have been fighting the depression a lot lately which means less sleep. I'm not suicidal at this time but I'm not sure how hard I'd fight death either. Plus the post traumatic stress is causing more nightmares an panic attacks lately. It's gotten bad enough that I'm going to have to buy a rail for my bed because I have broken all of my ribs by litterally throwing myself out of be during the nightmares. Plus my head is getting permenant indentations from hitting my dresser and bookshelf with such force.

Well, I wish that I had been more cheerful tonight, but I warned you that there would be parts of me rgat are not pretty and I hope that you can accept me this way.

For now may God bless you and keep you safe.

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Sorry for just cutting off like that. Unfortunately those of you with sleep disorders will understand that sometimes it hits and you just go to sleep no matter what you are doing.

Anyhow, as I was saying, when I worked on my last online ministry we had never heard of a blog so we didn't use them. We did provide a message board, but very few people used it. We also built our own chat room, but there were not enough of us to keep watch on it for visitors all the time, and we did have a weekly newsletter for those who signed up for it.

But to be honest all of these things meant to make the site more personal actually made it less so because we were always working on it instead of what really mattered.

So, I decided to chuck them all out the proverbial window this time. And then, being the good little borderline personality I am, my anxiety disorder kicked in asking how we would replace them and my OCD insisted that it woek as well or better than before.

And then like a 2x4 to the head it hit me. By setting up a blog for each person all of these things would be covered plus one big advantage. Unlike in our sermons we can be more personal here and tell you what's going on un our lives. Hey, It'll be kind of like being in therapy except I won't have to pay you $100.00 an hour to listen to me.

Now I won't promise to post at certain times or intervals but I will be here as often as I can. The problem is that along with writing most of the things going up here I have to write the codes in to get them to look like web pages. Also I have my beautiful wife to spend time with as well as my 18 year old (I sgould be so old) son and dixteen year old horemone I mean daughter and everyone has to go places and guess who's the only driver. Joseph did just buy a car and get his learner's permit but while he is learning fast teaching him takes up still more time. So like I say I'll post as often as I can but please understand if I'm not always prompt.

Hopefully in my next post I can start to describe myself and please feel free to contact me anytime by e-mail rev_tom_glove@yahoo.com. Until we get a request form set up you can also send prayer requests to me there as well and I will pass them on to everyone here at glove to pray over for you.

Until nex time I guess I should get busy o last Subday's sermon. (It's only Tuesday fer gossake.

God bless you my brothers and sisters in Christ.

More Rantings on a Friday night.

So here I am, sitting alone on a Friday night, just sitting here thinking about a few things. You know when I decided to build G.L.O.V.E. I'm not sure exactly what I had in mind. I did have experiance and training working as both pastor and assistant pastor in churches, but to be honest it's a lot easier working with people in person. In person you can get to know each person in your family and they can see by your actions if you are living the life you present with Christ. On the internet you have to just present your beliefs to people and pray that it will touch them because there is no way to personalize things for people you don,t know. And yet with my last online ministry while we did average over 2,500 people a month visiting us we still felt like a family. I don't mean just those of us who worked in the ministry, but also all of those who wrote to tell us that we had touched them somehow or just had a prayer request.