All for God... I'm just a speck

Ok, I'm not sure what prompted that title, but it's certainly true. I'm really not even sure what I'm going to write about tonight. I just know that I need to keep inpractice posting or I'm liable to keep putting it off and let it go forever. I'll have to let you decide if what I say has any meaning for you, but as well as site updates I really want it to be a place where I can bare my soul to you.

Updates: We haven't gotten as much done as I would have liked, but we are slowly making progress. I did write the tenth in the Psalms series and I'm working on 11 and hope to have it up tomorrow. Then if I can get lucky I'll be able to write the twelth and link it up for you either Sunday when it's due or Monday at the latest and be caught up. Joseph coded the pages for days 26 through 30 of Bible reading plan #1 and I added chapters 6 - 10 of Numbers in plan two. I also got another 10 days up in the history section so that you can read something that happened with Christianity each day through May 10th now. I know that this doesn't sound like that much, but if you are familiar with writing the codes for building web sites you'll know how much it really is. And if you want anything close to a life you'll understand why I can't get things up faster.

Updates in my so called life: I know that the big news health wise right now is this new flue and I plan to get to that but dirst I want to thank some very special heroes and thank God for them. Now I shudder to admit this but one of my personal vices is listening to talk radio. I co nsider myself to be pretty coservative and this seems to be the only way I can keep up with things since most papers seem to use a very liberal slant. I was listening yesterday when the host interupted his own show to ask for volunteers. It seems that there was a baby girl not quite 2 years old who desperately needed a quadrule organ transplant to live. I don't need to tell you what the odds are of all 4 organs being available at the same time in the same place and being a match for this poor child. But God being who and what He is provided a miricle and all of a sudden they had them. Only problem is that the organs were in Florida and the child I believe they said in Alabama and not much time to bring the two together. However a group called Angel Flights contacted the host whom I believe is a member and he asked for help on his show. Needles to say two wonderful people answered the call and at their own expense flew the baby and her parents in their own private plane to Florida in time for the surgery. To me these two represent what angels are supposed to be. Thank you both, the host Mr. N.B., Angel Flight and most of all Jesus Christ.

As far as this new flue I keep getting mixed messages. The rate at which it is spreading and the deaths attributed to it seem pretty upsetting to me, but according to the C.D.C. it is actually less than a normal bought of flue we get each winter. My thoughts are to try to avoid congested areas, be extra carefull to cover when sneezing or coughing, try not to have contact such as shaking hands any more than you need and wash your hands at every oportunity. And above all else don't forgrt to vaccinate yourself regularly with prayer.

I want to congratulate our own Becky who for many reasons decided to leave her home church of two years and join a new one last Sunday. Since then she has been given the job of worship leader and will also be preaching there for the first time on May 17th, so if you are in Wichita Ks. I invite you to join us at Brookside United Methodist at 10:30am to hear her.

I also want to congratulate Joseph who is up for the position of shift manger in his job. We'll be praying for you Joseph.

To Miss Mollie I send all of my prayers for God's healing touch for both you and Craig. If you want to see what exactly is going on with these wonderful people and why they need our prayers please read Mollie's blog for G.L.O.V.E. You'll find the link on the right.

I can't say I've been getting a whole lot done in my personal life. Becky is taking extra classes at college, Joseph is going back to work full time and Emmy being a sophemore and involved with her church always has something to due. We are working on getting Becky's liceince back now that we got her new glasses and Joseph got his learners permit but for now I am the only one driving except for teaching him which still takes a lot of time.

I have been fighting the depression a lot lately which means less sleep. I'm not suicidal at this time but I'm not sure how hard I'd fight death either. Plus the post traumatic stress is causing more nightmares an panic attacks lately. It's gotten bad enough that I'm going to have to buy a rail for my bed because I have broken all of my ribs by litterally throwing myself out of be during the nightmares. Plus my head is getting permenant indentations from hitting my dresser and bookshelf with such force.

Well, I wish that I had been more cheerful tonight, but I warned you that there would be parts of me rgat are not pretty and I hope that you can accept me this way.

For now may God bless you and keep you safe.